jenpri

 Gosh! Why is it so so hard for my mom in law to see some logical sense.  Ok, will begin from the beginning.  After anyone who passes away in this country, a death certificate is issued by the govt. This is an important certificate which is given to the banks and any other legal matters where the deceived's signatures were needed.  SO! We have been waiting for this certificate for over 15 days, and it was told to us that it will come next week. When and which day isn't given. Just next week is been told to us. Now me and daughter are here in this boring city with absolutely nothing to do. I had plans to visit the famous Golden Temple this week and she told me not to go, coz it will come this week. OK, i agreed. Now my daughter is planned on leaving soon, and i want to visit any nice resort just to have a feel of what a resort is in this city. Now she is telling me that i can't and that the certificate will come anytime i am away.  hey, we have been waiting for s...

Starting a new life all over again at the age of 52 is kind of daunting, but its something i have to do.  currently stuck at home in Chennai with mom in law, is relaxing but boring as well. I know people say I should mourn but for how long? Is mourning going to set me to my next part of my journey ? Is mourning going to bring me bread and butter? I don't believe we should stay in this state of mind for long and allow depression to take over our living condition. I have finally learnt what it means when people say, "Life must go ON", and thats exactly what I want as well.  Being bored at home is driving me and my daughter up the wall. If I was in my own place, I would have things to do and keep my mind occupied. Right now, I’m keeping myself occupied by watching movies online (I wouldn't have this time), writing this blog (to which I’m thankful for the time), studying my course (I wouldn't have had the time), relaxing and not cooking (I dislike cooking). WOW! so ma...

 Its been 1 week now for husband's demise. Yes, 1 week already! How do I feel? I don't know! I am not feeling happy nor do i feel sad. I knew his time was coming soon, but I was still waiting and hoping to see him, but I guess he didn't want us (both me and my daughter) to see him in the last stage of his illness. According to my neighbor, he wasn't doing so well. He had lost weight drastically, and was bones. He wasn't eating so well, had a lot of breathing problems and was depending on getting extra oxygen from the cylinder and the oxygen concentrator, wasn't having enough water, and was unable to speak and sit up for long. His cousin had recently passed away, and I guess when he heard that news, he couldn't take that blow. I know its cruel of me to say this, but he has been released from his painful state of physical body. He was in miserable pain and needed medications to numb the body pain.  His illness was progressing but slow while he was with me in C...